Mixed Feelings, but Very Excited

It is the night before we embark on our journey throughout haiti. I have various feelings about the upcoming trip. I just got off of the phone with my mother who is very nervous for me and I think she is part of the reason I am so nervous. She did a lot of research on haiti which I appreciate because it shows how much she cares. I am the first person in my family to travel to a developing country and staying outside of a resort so this is new to her. In addition to her making me somewhat nervous, I am also nervous about fitting into the American stereotype of development and knowledge tourism. Even though I am unable to directly communicate with the local people, I hope they understand we are not here to take pictures of them and tell them what to do and what they did wrong. I think I will be able to learn so much from this experience more so than I will have an impact on others there for the most part. Aside from my nerves I am extremely excited to explore and experience haiti. I have already learned so much from pre trip training sessions, my leaders, and required readings, it will be interesting to see the pressing issues and themes in real life. I have learned a lot about public health issues and development, but only through the standard classroom setting. I am eager to learn about public health and development issues in the field. Lastly, I am grateful for this amazing opportunity. I can't wait for tomorrow!